I had a rough night last night. The flashbacks were really bad and just wouldn't shut off. My husband was great, he was really tired and was trying to sleep when it started. He rolled over, pulled me into his arms and held me. He was able to get me to take full breaths, which was good because I was on the urge of a panic attack, and talked to me and even got me to laugh.
He asked if I wanted to try a sleeping pill, which the doctor prescribed me (I haven't taken one yet) and I declined... I don't want to get trapped in another nightmare, the night before last I dreamt that there was a third baby, we didn't know until the same thing happened as Twin A. I also don't want to become reliant on them to sleep and if I take them to sleep one night due to flashbacks I will end up needing one every night.
I ended up falling asleep eventually but woke up at 6:30 and didn't think I'd be able to get back asleep so I just layed there for a few hours before I finally fell back asleep.
I feel like the flashbacks are hitting me harder lately.
Hey sweety! I've been thinking about you non-stop. I'm so glad that you have your hubby to help you through all of this....! I just found your blog after your comment on mine (I haven't spent much time in the blog world lately, I've been meaning to go back into your profile to see if you'd started one)
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Sending you so much love!!!
Oh.. would you like me to mention your blog on mine???? I know there are other Mamas out there that would love to offer you support and encouragement... or would you like to stay fairly private right now?
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